In a nutshell, I am sharing because God put it on my heart to do it. My perfectionism has been a curse and I have put it off for quite a long time. I often think of all the things lost–the struggles overcome, the journey through denial and the quest for answers. Where do I start? So many things to share. Let me start by saying that whatever is going on in my body is more real than the nose on my face. I am attempting to manage this rheumatic fire with the guidance of not only my rheumatologist, but a Dr. of naturopathy. It will be two years in June since symptoms first emerged. The fire continues to spread and I have learned to live with chronic pain. But I have chosen this path because I want to breastfeed my baby as long as I possibly can and avoid the potential side effects that the drugs hold. I often wonder if and when the day will come when I decide to attack this destructive fire with med.s. I trust that I will have a peace about it when it is time. Either that, or I will crack physically and emotionally and go running to my rheumatologist crying and telling him that I am finally ready.
And let’s face it folks–I am here because I could use some therapy. Writing it down just feels good sometimes. It helps you go–aaaahhhh…. I also hope to make some friends along the way. I truly believe that I stumbled upon certain bloggers for a reason in just His time. I have enjoyed reading about how they get through each day. It brings comfort and laughter, and quite honestly–tears. My heart breaks when I read of how some of you feel. The words of different bloggers come to my thoughts throughout the day because of the similarities. I soon hope to share the things I have done in my search for answers and the things I am doing now.